There are so many days that give me mixed feelings. Sometimes I’m blindsided by things that happen but it’s always living in a constant state of stress and anxiety. I feel like I’m always on the edge. Always waiting for the next catastrophe. I’m lucky to have a way to express how I’m feeling and
I must say that even after all that we’ve been through as a family I am amazed and proud of how we have stuck together. Even when the girls were mad at their brother they may have expressed their disapproval with our choices but it hasn’t hurt our relationship with them. Being able to talk
I was thinking about how we manage to be there for each of our children when an addict takes up so much of our time, thoughts and actions. It makes me feel guilty sometimes that so much of my thoughts are about how we can help him without enabling, should we do this, should we
Let’s be honest about our feelings. It’s really hard to love someone who doesn’t act like they love or care about you. We all had a vision of what our family would be like. It sure wasn’t like this. We never dreamed that our sweet adorable children would grow up to be drug addicts, to
This is Memorial Day weekend, a holiday to celebrate with family and friends. But what if your family doesn’t want your addict son or daughter at their house? Do you still go? Do you stay home? Do you make other plans? It’s hard to know the right thing to do. You hate to see your
Being a Mom, anyone’s mom, takes a lot of love, energy, time, compassion, learning when to speak and when to listen, when to help and when to take a step back, when to be an advocate and when to let them do it on their own. People say that when children are little their problems
Every day brings new challenges, new joys and gives life new meanings. Today is a day I’d prefer not to hear my sons problems. You see even after 12 years he has still not paid his restitution from his felonies. He has been on probation for 12 years! He has been given more breaks then
The hardest thing I had to do was apply for a visitor pass at the county prison. I didn’t feel like I would make it through the day, but I did. And it wasn’t as bad the next time. Yes sadly there was a next time. But those 16 felonies were knocked down to just
*** It’s been 1 year and a half since I started writing this blog. So much has changed but so much has remained the same. My son has been in jail several times, He’s there right now and will miss the birth of his daughter this week. Instead of becoming more positive about his recovery