It’s now been 2 1/2 years since I started writing this blog. There have been so many ups and downs. I’m just tired, tired of the promises, the “I’m Sorrys”, tired of the lies, just tired and I don’t know how things will end up. Much like all of you reading this, it truly is One Day At A Time. By writing I hope to convey to you my readers that you are not alone, sadly we are all in this together. The heartbreak, the locks, the boundaries, all the things we all do to attempt to keep our sanity; We do it together and we can lean on each other knowing that there are people just like ourselves facing the heartbreak that addiction causes. Be kind to each other, it what we do have control over.

*** It’s been 1 year and a half since I started writing this blog. So much has changed but so much has remained the same. My son has been in jail several times, He’s there right now and will miss the birth of his daughter this week. Instead of becoming more positive about his recovery I’m sad to say at this point I’m starting to lose hope. I do want to believe he can recover, I don’t want to lose my son but the devil seems to be holding on pretty tightly.***

Hello World! I am here to tell my story. It’s not always happy but not always sad. I guess a little like everyone’s life except that I am also a Mom that has been dealing with her child’s addiction, not always the easiest thing but I have to keep moving forward, keep hoping and praying, basically living one day at a time. So this is my life which might be a lot like yours or nothing you ever imagined. Hopefully by telling my story it will bring some understanding to others that don’t quite see what families of an addict go through as well as help those that do to know that they are not alone. We are all in this crazy messed up world together so let’s help each other.

I’m a mother of a recovering addict. I am also a wife, mother of non-addicts, a daughter and a Grandmother. I am just like you, I work, I babysit, I help others, I cook, I do laundry, I read, I travel, I pray, I cry and I laugh. Because being the Mother of a recovering addict has moments of deep pain and moments of great joy. These changes can happen in a matter of minutes. This is my story, this is my life.

Each post is about my feelings, my experiences throughout our family’s journey with our sons addiction. I’m writing from my perspective as his mother. Addiction hurts everyone and affects everyone it touches but it also brings everyone a new closeness from shared experiences, at least from my experience. My husband and I had decided early on that this wouldn’t be a secret, that just leaves too much to the imagination of others. We don’t always share every detail but only the main facts of his disease. We hope that people will ask questions or research information so that they could be more informed or at least less judgemental. It has worked fairly well although there have been some exceptions that we have had to deal with. Providing education about addiction is the best way to get less of the negative comments and more support and understanding.

I’ve tried to compile not only my own person experiences but also resources that can help both the addict and the family or friends to find new resources that you might have never heard about before. Being informed gives you a sense of control which we don’t have much of when we love an addict. Please comment, ask questions and leave suggestions so that we can all benefit from shared knowledge.

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There are times when we all need to refocus ourselves away from the stress of life on the edge. Living with and loving an addict is living on the edge. I am always waiting for something to happen. It could be a relapse, it could be items missing from our home or a visit at our door from the police. This stress wears you down and sometimes it just helps to know that you are not alone.

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