I know that it has been awhile since I last posted. Life goes on and it’s easy to let your guard down or let yourself relax. I feel like things are on a better track and maybe I just don’t want to jinx it. Life Goes on.

I feel like my son is staying clean but getting ahead in life is a different story. He is living with his mother in law along with his wife and 4 children. It’s like he thinks he has a free ride. He still thinks the world owes him something. He still doesn’t hold down a job or pay bills. So in reality is he doing better? I don’t know. Without the generosity of people he would be homeless along with his family, so is that a step in the right direction or just a shuffle to the side? Life goes on.

So I guess him being clean is definitely better, but is he really living in reality? Is he actually a functioning adult? Does he know how to navigate real life? Does he have a true direction? Is he lost? What can I do to help him? Should I do anything to help him? Is his new life better then his old life? Is he truly happy? What will be the turning point? Can he learn what it means to be part of society? But Life goes on.

There are so many questions and so few answers. I do not know where he goes from here. He is just existing and not fulfilling his potential. I am sad for him. I want him to know what success is in his life. But is this success to him? How do I change him mindset or the better question is what makes him change his mindset?

Life Goes on even if it’s not the way we imagined. Time never stops. I can only continue living my life and pray that he begins to see what more life can be. I hope he sees that there is so much more to life then sleeping, an occasional job, taking the kids to school and watching TV. He pretends to be living a great life, on the surface he tells people of his jobs but is that just burying his true feelings. Is he getting lost in the imaginary reality he has created in order to survive in his true reality? He has always exaggerated everything about his life, he always wants to appear different or in his eyes “better” then what he is. My wish for him is to be happy and content, to know what it feels like to be satisfied in life, real life not his imagination. Life goes on.

Life goes on and we go on. Praying for peace and contentment in everything we do.

“If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.” ~Wayne Dyer

When You Feel Like You’re Going Nowhere and Life Has No Point