I know that it has been awhile since I last posted. Life goes on and it’s easy to let your guard down or let yourself relax. I feel like things are on a better track and maybe I just don’t want to jinx it. Life Goes on. I feel like my son is staying clean
I’m always trying to see the future and how little changes can snowball into greater things. I would like to concentrate more on today and less on tomorrow, Living in the moment with Gratitude. If things are good right now I need to live in this moment of time instead of worrying about tomorrow. That
Life is a Roller Coaster. Each day I’m either climbing higher or in a free fall. I either feel like I’m warm in the glowing sun or crawling slowly through a dark cave. There are so many metaphors I could use as a Mother of an Addict. There’s probably quite a few you have of
This is an amazing article. Please read and pass it along to whomever needs it. Broken relationships from addiction can be repaired in time with work. https://journeypureriver.com/repair-relationships-broken-by-addiction/ Written by Journey Pure Staff Addiction is a chronic disease that can negatively affect a person’s life and health. What many people don’t know is that addiction is
Peacefulness in the midst of a storm. Detachment brings inner peace. That is my mantra. I am working so very hard to keep a sense of peace around me while holding onto my boundaries. Is it easy? Absolutely not. Is it worth it? 100%. I don’t know when I made this breakthrough or how it
Confidence. Coming to terms with many things feels like I’ve lifted a huge weight off of me. I am slowly coming to the realization that the only person I have control of is myself. This realization brings with it both a sadness and a great peace. Sadness that I really cannot help someone who doesn’t
It isn’t my job to keep the peace of those who have caused chaos in my life. When the holidays come so does added stress for everyone. It’s not easy when you child is not included in family plans. It hurts. Not just him but me too. On one level I can understand but because
If you’ve been following the saga of our ups and downs then you are aware of my sons continuing addiction. Now it is gambling. I’ve really been pushed beyond my limits. So I decided enough is enough. I did that. That being confrontation, no backing down, boldly setting boundaries and being confident in my decision.
https://tinybuddha.com/blog/the-antidote-to-shame-i-am-enough/?fromterm=4921 The following is a wonderful story from Christy Bonner about loving an addict reposted from “Tiny Buddha” “You alone are enough. You have nothing to prove to anybody.” ~Maya Angelou I grew up with a father who was an addict. When I was fourteen my dad hit rock bottom and lost a job with a six-figure salary, my
I am lost and I just want to cry. I cannot do this anymore. I just can’t take this roller coaster ride again. I want my son to go back to jail. Am I an evil mother? Am I wrong? I love him and I hate him all at the same time. How is that
When does saying you’re sorry mean something? I have heard it so many times and it sounds sincere in the moment. The tears flow as he says all the right words and if it was the first time I would be gullible enough to believe him. If he wasn’t an addict I’d believe him but
Yes, he’s in jail, his family is losing their home, he gambled away all the profits from his business and he wants money for socks! He has the audacity to call to say he wants socks! http://www.walkingthruthedark.com/2022/05/20/how-much-more-can-i-take/ I think that this is the first time that I am this angry with him. He has not
Deja Vue, here we go again. Jail time, again. I don’t think he’ll ever learn. I believe he’s always going to fall back to his old habits when times get tough. He knows his triggers, he knows the resources available but yet he seems to just want the easy way. The easy way doesn’t get
Well Hello Today! Today is another day, a day we can start anew if we choose to do that. I am hoping and praying that we can start anew. I am still worried about my son but the few conversations that we have showed me he has the tools he needs to prevent or limit